let us be together again

i don know why but theres no one else to turn to.
i love u i really do.
its like just after your outing with your frens on 6 august 2010
u totally changed.
i wan u back beside me as it is before.
without u life's meaningless.
i would give u all tat i can, so long its within my means.
when we patched back we told each other at our secret place
no matter wad happens we would not breakup anymore.
we will stick with each other through thick and thin.
but now everything is falling apart.
im really lifeless to do anything.
this morning i was thinking wad if i saw u at the bus stop
and guess wad i really did see u alighting the bus.
i was in fact happy but when i crossed the road u turned back
simultaneously walking off at a rather fast speed.
and i was thinking while crossing the road wad did i do to get this in return.
a car came and i didnt notice it.
it was a silver hyundai.
it was travelling at a high speed and it was less than a metre
away from running me over.
the driver sounded the horn at me and u didnt even turned back to see.
i could still remember the time we were at my cousin's wedding
we even discussed about wad we would like to have on our wedding
and how would the setting be like.
i planned everything alr.
including how many kids we would have and
wad age we would get married.
u might think im stupid but i bother to think about this
because i have alr regarded u as my DEAREST WIFE
and not my girlfriend any longer.
i have alr chosen to spend the rest of my life with u
KIMBERLY TOH SHIMIN
not any other girl.
i always ask who text u because i know i couldnt
afford to lose u.
yes im easily jealous but in the past u always say when
i get jealous it means ILOVEYOU.
i miss the times where we would hold hands and walk to our secret place.
we used to read our anni letters to each other and we would
never fail to laugh at each other when reading it as it was foolish.
but i knew everything i was saying was true and ppl might laugh when reading
this i don care.
all i wan now is u with me again
like my blog address says so YOUMEYOUMEYOUME
just the both of us living our own life.
im willing to give in as much as u need.
u said maybe my mum is right u will change when you're in
secondary 2 or 3 but when u change don forget i can
change for u too.
LOVE IS EVERYTHING.
for a relationship to be a lasting one,
one side must change for the sake of the other party so tat
both will live in harmony.
and i don mind being the one changing for u.
after all we have been through
playing the snap twist game, straw game, tickling game,
even holding hands we can make each other laugh and lots more.
i miss those days.
your mum is great too in fact i love your family too all
of them are very good to me.
stayover at your house on CNY and when your uncle
came back from holland was fun.
your mum cooks good food.
and saying about food u remember the first time i cooked
spaghetti and make sandwiches for u at your house.
it was fun.
went lots of places to fish with u too
not only fishing but we have almost been to everywhere before
but now if i would to go back to those places,
i can assure u i would definitely break down in tears.
as memories will start flashingback in my mind when
u was just right beside me and it just feels only like yesterday.
u would seem so near but deep inside i know you're no longer with me.
i really wan u back with me im very lost without u.
when i was with u my whole life orbited around u
now when you're gone im totally aimless in life.
its so hard for me to pick myself up and carry on with life
because i know tat you're the one for me.
it was only not long ago when u used facebook and search wad
my boyfriend or future husband zodiac is
and it came out sagittarius.
and tat was me.
you were so happy and u texted me.
i've got more to say but u might not even be interested to
read any of it.
so i will end off with a last sentence and tat is
NO MATTER WAD HAPPENS
U ARE A AWESOME GIRLFRIEND
ILY still hope u change your mind.
19/04/09 4.57pm